If you needed cash, and there was a positive balance in your bank account, would you stand and stare at the ATM machine, reluctant to touch it? Would you walk around it several times, hum and act like you had money in your pocket already and didn’t really need to be there? Would you drive past, but think better of it, then go to the store… drive past, then go sit in the parking lot instead of getting your cash…
Of course not, unless you have some problems you don’t want to discuss! But you could have a similar scenario in your spiritual life. Sometimes I do… and while I’m thankful that it happens less often with maturity, I wish it didn’t happen at all.
Calm, comfort, joy, peace, quiet… are just outside my situation and vision, and all I have to do is access them. But for whatever reason, I put it off. I “handle” things awhile longer. I smile on the outside, while my heart is full of anxiety and my brain is rapidly calculating various plans that will probably fail.
I know better — you probably do, as well. But then, seemingly out of nowhere, it’s happening again… and we’re pretty sure we aren’t stupid.
Maybe this situation falls under the category of “sin that so easily besets us.”
Copyright 2010 by Tammi Mossman.
