Family is coming in and out of town. I had to cancel the last two weeks of our school year. I’m not going to be able to help with preparations for VBS. I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep in over a week, nor many good naps — and sleep is vital to my health. I’m just getting over a sinus infection and I’m exhausted and I’ve been losing my voice for over a week. I’m watching my husband stress, grieve, plan and do, lose sleep, and cough… Today it’s all hands on-deck to move my SIL… I’m sad and angry and resentful and grateful at the same time… I’m watching my kids learn how to handle their first major loss/grief in life…
Have I mentioned that I hate waiting for someone to die?
Physically, mentally, emotionally — I feel I am walking a tightrope in all areas, and in my own strength I’ll fall and hurt myself soon. The only option I have is to place myself in my Lord’s hands and do what He gives me strength to do — and then stay in bed and rest all day tomorrow. I will also infuse much worship into the day to keep my focus and priorities straight.
Holy Uncreated One
Your beauty fills the skies
But the glory of Your majesty
Is the mercy in Your eyes
Worthy Uncreated One
From heaven to earth come down
You laid aside Your royalty
To wear the sinner’s crown
O Great God, be glorified
Our lives laid down
Your’s magnified
O Great God, be lifted high
There is none like You
Jesus, Savior, God’s own son
Risen, reigning Lord
Sustainer of the Universe
By the power of Your Word
And when we see Your matchless face
In speechless awe we’ll stand
And there we’ll bow with grateful hearts
Unto the Great I Am
~Chris Tomlin
Copyright 2010 by Tammi Mossman.
I am praying for you. My heart is broken for you….and with you. This is too much for ANY human person to handle, and therefore the Bible inserts that whole “peace that PASSES understanding” bit, because there is no other explanation that you haven’t gone over the edge. Well, that and all your friends that are symbolically on either side of you, holding up your arms for you, as this battle rages on. Your sadness, anger, and resentment is a burden I will gladly bear as you sort all this out. Keep venting. We, your real friends will not be bothered, and we can handle it. The amazing thing about “unloading” is that it doesn’t increase my burden in the least for you to do so. It does lighten yours though, and that’s what’s important in the coming days. Right girls? ♥
Yes! Amen!
What is the title of the song?
“Uncreated One”
During our deepest trials we learn how much God really cares and how He truly does carry us through them. He doesn’t generally carry us over or around trials-He simply carries us through them. He never said that life would be easy, in fact, several times He commented precisely the opposite. But trials eventually lead us to a more perfect life lived in faith and exhibiting God’s grace to all who are in our vicinity. There are no platitudes, no rote words that can add any comfort. But remember that God does not call us to go through any trial alone – He is always there “with us in the fire”. I am encouraged knowing that this situation has brought the family together as one cohesive unit, all praying together in unity for the sake of their sibling. Watching and waiting and wondering if there is anything else that could be done is difficult. May God grant the family peace and acceptance, allowing dignity to remain intact. May the love of God and the love of family surround each member so thoroughly that each KNOWS that God is with them – that each can feel His very real presence.
May God give you the physical stamina to endure and the strength that is necessary to help your family through this period of darkness and despair. I know that you are close, and I hurt for you from the depths of my heart.
I’m praying for you and for the family. I love you.
You are not alone. Though many miles separate us, I’m praying with you.
God, thank you for upholding my sister. Thank you for walking the toughest miles with her, for enabling her to help those she love with prayer, with her presence, and with practical matters. Thank for for surrounding her with your peace. And for being our ever present help in troubling times.
I love you!