Family is coming in and out of town. I had to cancel the last two weeks of our school year. I’m not going to be able to help with preparations for VBS. I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep in over a week, nor many good naps — and sleep is vital to my health. I’m just getting over a sinus infection and I’m exhausted and I’ve been losing my voice for over a week. I’m watching my husband stress, grieve, plan and do, lose sleep, and cough… Today it’s all hands on-deck to move my SIL… I’m sad and angry and resentful and grateful at the same time… I’m watching my kids learn how to handle their first major loss/grief in life…
Have I mentioned that I hate waiting for someone to die?
Physically, mentally, emotionally — I feel I am walking a tightrope in all areas, and in my own strength I’ll fall and hurt myself soon. The only option I have is to place myself in my Lord’s hands and do what He gives me strength to do — and then stay in bed and rest all day tomorrow. I will also infuse much worship into the day to keep my focus and priorities straight.
Holy Uncreated One
Your beauty fills the skies
But the glory of Your majesty
Is the mercy in Your eyes
Worthy Uncreated One
From heaven to earth come down
You laid aside Your royalty
To wear the sinner’s crown
O Great God, be glorified
Our lives laid down
Your’s magnified
O Great God, be lifted high
There is none like You
Jesus, Savior, God’s own son
Risen, reigning Lord
Sustainer of the Universe
By the power of Your Word
And when we see Your matchless face
In speechless awe we’ll stand
And there we’ll bow with grateful hearts
Unto the Great I Am
~Chris Tomlin
Copyright 2010 by Tammi Mossman.
